In that moment when the touch of her hands still lingered on his, he felt grateful: grateful to still have Katniss in his life, that they were both able to get away alive yet again. Were they truly lucky or unlucky over that fact?
Once he was alone he headed to the bathroom, feeling like he needed a cold shower to wash away the staleness of the underground. It was there that he allowed himself to break down where no one could (hopefully) see him. Despite how unhappy their family had been, they were still his family, the only one he had in the world. They hadn't been the most loving, the most hopeful, and he knew they would have gotten over his death as quickly as it came in the Games, but he had not been prepared for this, to wake up and realize he was alone.
Yes, he had people here, friends he was glad to see alive and well. He had Haymitch and Finnick and Effie, - somewhere - even Gale he was sort of relieved to see.
He had Katniss.
If she hadn't taken over his whole world so far, she had now.
When his emotions had settled and the shower was too icy to handle any longer, he got out and headed to the bedroom to change into some real clothes, sitting up in one of the small beds there and just... waiting.
pfft <3 sorry for so much tl;dr sob
Once he was alone he headed to the bathroom, feeling like he needed a cold shower to wash away the staleness of the underground. It was there that he allowed himself to break down where no one could (hopefully) see him. Despite how unhappy their family had been, they were still his family, the only one he had in the world. They hadn't been the most loving, the most hopeful, and he knew they would have gotten over his death as quickly as it came in the Games, but he had not been prepared for this, to wake up and realize he was alone.
Yes, he had people here, friends he was glad to see alive and well. He had Haymitch and Finnick and Effie, - somewhere - even Gale he was sort of relieved to see.
He had Katniss.
If she hadn't taken over his whole world so far, she had now.
When his emotions had settled and the shower was too icy to handle any longer, he got out and headed to the bedroom to change into some real clothes, sitting up in one of the small beds there and just... waiting.